I have mentioned in a recent blog that I am still dealing with some medical issues. One of those issues my inability to lose weight. The weight issue is really a side effect, not something I can prevent

When I was in high school, I was a 97 lbs. toothpick that supported a suzzaphone almost half my weight over my shoulders.  Life happens, you marry an excellent cook and you gain weight.

Since after high school, I have always been a little over weight, but I was comfortable with it, my doctor was happy with because I was healthy and active. Then we get older and slow down, but I still held my weight on an even plain.

Last year is when I really noticed a change in my weight and right now there is no answer for it.

January last year, at my 6 month check up at my family practice doctor, I weighed in at 236 lbs. By June at my yearly physical, I was up to 247 lbs. I  leveled off at this point keeping the same weight. This January again for my 6 month check up, I was weighed at 271 lbs. and being in the border line of pre diabetic.

The doctor was alarmed at this and wanted me to start on a weight loss program. She asked many usual questions like, are you eating extra snacks, drinking to many sugar products, etc. My answer was no. My eating habits have remained the same. I drink only coffee and water, rarely have any kind of soda. I told her all the symptoms I was having and she order a MRI as she already had a couple of suspcions. The request went in, but the insurance denied the test. In fact they have denied several other diagnostic tests that need to be done to find out what my body is failing at.

So, I went to a weight doctor. He wanted to put on a weight loss drug, but again the insurance denied coverage. So then the doctor went to a stimulant drug, that was approved by insurance, but this drug causes many side effects and is hard on the heart and other organs, so I can only be on this type of drugs for 4 to 5 months.

So I am on my 4th month on this drug. I have just crossed 238 lbs. I am happy about that, but the concern is back to the original problem. What was causing the weight gain to begin with. My symptoms still haven’t changed, and I am dependent on a drug to keep me from becoming an overfilled hot air balloon.

In April, I will be officially on Medicare and I can get away from Obama care. I will just say one thing about Obama care and then leave it alone. I have never been, and now that I have had to use it, will never be a supporter of it.

So all my diagnostic test have to be held until April. What does my doctor suspect, that is causing my weight gain and other symptoms. She said she suspects, there is a problem with my liver or pancreas. Without the proper diagnostic testing, there is no way to find out.

There are other smaller issues with my health, that are a spit into lake Michigan compared to this.

So how am I doing spiritually. God has gone way before me and has prepared my path. I have gone into my dark room last time not letting God lead the way. I know what that produces. So from now on, I’m doing it God’s way.

God has the power to heal me, if he chooses to do so. If His plan is not to heal me, I will rejoice in the fact, that what ever the outcome may be, He is already preparing for it. My job, is to be Faithful, keep my eyes upon the Lord and let Him direct me, to lean on His promises to me, that He will never leave my side, and that He will never allow me go through anything that I can’t handle as long as I continue to keep my eyes focused on Him.

Yes, I am in another dark room right now, but this time it’s different. This time God is in control, God will have the Glory and He will receive my praise. I will follow his direction how ever long it may take. When I am finally able to reach the light switch to flip on  the light. I will emerge with victory and joy and enjoy God’s riches that he will cover me with.

However, even though I have had time to heal spiritually from my last experience, I know I get strength from other believers through prayer. So I am also asking, that please lift me up in your prayers, by just asking God, that I stay sensitive to his voice, that where ever He leads, I will quickly follow.

When I do emerge from this dark room, I will let you know, and we can all claim VICTORY, SING PRAISES, AND GIVE GOD THE GLORY TOGETHER!